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i cannot wait until i move. my parents are driving me nuts. i love them dearly, and i know they just want whats best for me. but sometimes. oh my god. my mom is so negative sometimes and increibly racist it drives me nuts. i think a huge part of my problem is i went from being independant for a good solid year and getting myself out of tough situatins on my own, its rough to come back to living under your parents roof. im 22 years old and my mother will NOT knock on my door. just barges right on in. call me crazy, but im not a fan of my mother seeing my naked ass at this age. I dont feel like i belong here. this isnt my house anymore. this isnt my room anymore. im just a guest for two months and im hating every second of it. and to make matters worse, i dont really have the money to get OUT of the house since im saving to move across the country. ugh. life is complicated sometimes.

my posts suck right now. theres alot going on in my life that i have yet to say anything about because well. its just too long and complicated. when things start going better. they might get a little more interesting :)