where has january gone?!

okay so the whole writting in my vox every night, hasnt gone over so well. life has been a little more then hectic. working two jobs and having a boyfriend, not exactly the easiest thing to juggle. im currently sitting at the boyfriends (andrew) house while he is at hockey. He coaches a kids hockey team and tonight is their first playoff game so im just chilling here alone (his brother is out and his mom and dad have gone away for the weekend) I decided to make dinner for him and i tonight, something i rarely do. I also tried to make dessert..try being the key word.  my mom makes this killer chocolate patte with melted chocolate, whipped cream and raspberries. probably the  best thing ever. but apparently i cant even do that because i just tasted it and it isnt tasty at all. oh well, its the thought that counts right?! Drew does all the cooking when we make food because I am useless in the kitchen, but i really want to learn so I can make him dinner on nights like this when hes out being a good guy (how many 24 year old guys take time out of the day to help 11/12 year old boys play hockey?!)

is it just  me or is it really hard to meet good friends after highschool? I have lived here for five months now and i still dont have a single person (other then the boyfriend) i can call to hang out with. in the long run, im actually okay with it. but there are nights i would just like to get some girls together and go catch a movie. i long for my girl talk. not a single one of my friends from back home have called me since i moved. i call some of them here and there because hi, lonely. its just really sad to know that the people i was SO close to aren't too concered with keeping our friendship going since i live out here now...im going to vegas in may with my mom and a bunch of her friends for my moms 50th birthday, and i have no one to come with me. i will be the youngest one there by atlesat 20 years. woo...fun...not so much? i mean, i could always turn down the trip, but if i do, I wont see my mom until september when we all go to new york and my mom and i are really close and i miss her already so its not something i really want to do.

sorry for everything being all over the place. my mind is just racing and all over the place right now...